REALLY ..... A Year Ago?????

I can't believe this was a year ago.....It is so crazy how the time flies....
I woke up last year on this day feeling yucky....I was feeling yucky anyway....high blood pressure and lots of drugs to stop labor didn't do well for me....but this day felt different I felt like it was THE day......So I made Jeff take a belly shot. So scary.....

Right before the emergency C-Section......I remember feeling SO nervous. My Dr. was off that day it was a Friday. Luckily he should up moments after this...in his golf clothes I was so relieved...seriously he is the best OB if you need one...CALL ME!



Everything was a whirlwind of LOTS of emotions and LOTS of scary moments after the c-section. I still can't believe I didn't get to hold my baby or see him for more than a moment until the next day....I was soooo sick and groggy after the surgery I couldn't make it up to NICU.

Having a baby in the NICU is the scariest thing....even though I knew Ryder was going to be fine and come home with us. There are so many LITTLE babies with very scary problems. It is so nerve racking the ENTIRE time! This is part of the reason I am not sure we will have another....I am SO scared that this will all happen again!


This year at times seemed to go SO slow....Ryder was so unhappy in the beginning. I am so glad that he is so much happier. I can't believe what a joy he is. He LOVES people and gets so excited when we are out and about......except the other day...and I tell you, you had to see it to believe it. Those who are around him often don't believe me.
Ryder is finally crawling up on fours, pulling himself up in his crib. He loves to be outside....he will just sit in the yard while I make dinner and watch his crazy brothers.
I am so grateful for this last year. I feel like I have grown so much and learned a lot. I am not so sure how I am going to do Three toddlers....luckily Noah is becoming more of a help everyday. I love the four age...except the talking back.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY RY RY!!!! We love you and can't wait to celebrate this weekend!!!