Bad Luck.....

I was really hoping after this happened....the day after christmas with my brand new baby. I was thinking maybe just maybe our bad luck was ending.

Nope it didn't last.....Last wednesday I slipped going down the stairs with Nash. Luckily I bent my body forward over Nash and he was completely fine. But I took a good beating I have a small hair line fracture in my arm. No cast but I am in a sling for the next few weeks. And I hurt my back and bruised a kidney.  Luckily I am feeling so much better....except maybe my pride. 

I am so glad that I have so much family and friends looking out for us. Our ward has been so supportive bringing in meals for weeks and offering anything. My family is amazing and I am so blessed having them around me to offer help. I really hope I can get back to normal quickly and back to our life and our new normal....whatever that is!!

New Years....

2012 was one of those years that honestly I couldn't be happier to say good bye to. While we did have some amazing things a new house, and a new baby most of the things in between were a bit much. So counting down to 2013 was exciting to me. I couldn't wait to put this year and the bad string of luck goodbye......

I swear it may not look like it fits....

Aunt Leslie was such a HUGE help with the boys while we were going back and forth to the hospital. I don't know what I would have done with out her!!

 During the day we decided to take the boys out to go do something....we tried out the new bowling alley in Temecula....the boys loved it.  I loved it because it was all so nice and new and CLEAN. Bowling alleys completely freak me out!!

 That night we headed to my Grandparents for lots of yummy food and games. Dru and Heather introduced to a fun new game bubble talk it was a hit with all....except the men who were busy playing poker...Jeff actually won. Maybe we should test out our luck in Vegas this year!!

 Carter and Noah kept coming up with these funny hair styles.....goof balls!

 Sawyer and Rhys were the only two who didn't make it until midnight.

 I made Casey take a picture with me....I found out I was pregnant with Nash two days before I threw her a baby shower for Jack....I definitely did NOT see that one coming!!!

 2013 has got to be better to us.....pretty please!!

 Party animal....

 New years day was spent like this.......SO SO tired!!

Christmas 2012

Christmas Eve was spent over at my Grandparents with all the Morgan's and yes I realize how crazy it was that I took my NICU released baby but I slapped on the Ergo and no one bugged him at all. Also in large part to my mom giving everyone a pep talk before we arrived about keeping a perimeter. I love my family could't imagine a holiday with out them.  

 Cari and Heather had a great idea to make every family do a game or skit it was very entertaining only next year we might need to start a little earlier!!

 The reindeer panty hose game was a HUGE hit.  Once home it was time to set out cookies and milk and open Christmas PJ's.....Santa came and we had some very spoiled boys!!

 First night all tucked in his bed....

Red mustaches and funny glasses were a hit in the stockings this year!!

 I got my very own doll to play with.....yes that is a real doll box!

 My perfect baby Jesus!!

I can't believe we made it to Christmas. I was a little sad because I didn't get to do all my traditions that I love about this time of year. But all and all it was a wonderful Christmas!!

Welcome Home Nash......

Christmas Eve day Jeff and I headed down to the hospital to camp out waiting for the Doctor.....hoping we would get the good news that Nash could come home.  When we first arrived the Nurse who he had was not supportive. She basically said she didn't think we could go home today.  I was so angry. I knew he would be fine he would have little dips and spells while eating which I knew and I knew exactly what to do...sometimes he just needed help breathing, sucking and swallowing. we sat around for a long time waiting for the word from the Dr. Finally she came in and said we felt confident so she wasn't worried about sending us home.  I couldn't wait to get out of there fast enough! Thankfully Grammy, and Leslie were holding down the fort at home making cookies for Santa and keeping the boys busy!! 

 The boys were so excited to finally hold Nash. Rhys was so cute with him and has continued to love him and even tries to share his snacks with Nash.

Christmas Eve was especially sweet with all of my babies home under one roof. I slept for the first time since Nash was born.....well slept better or as much as you can with a newborn!!

From the NICU

Before Nash was born I thought I knew preemies. In fact having already had two babies in the NICU I thought I was seasoned and that this NICU stay would be a complete breeze. WOW was I wrong.  There is really no way to describe having carried your baby around for in my case seven months and then suddenly have your baby ripped out of you and you can't do anything for the baby for weeks. It pretty much goes against all things of nature. I thought that I would handle it so much better this time around but.....Nash was so much earlier than the other two and was in for a much longer road than Ryder and Rhys. The best way to describe having to leave your baby at the hospital is having your heart ripped in two. I was so torn leaving the other boys at home and being with Nash who was over an hour away. It was so tough. Especially for Noah and Sawyer who seemed to know more of what was going on this time around. Being around Christmas there was a TON of activities that we were missing out on and plays and performances I couldn't make it too. Heartbreaking. 

I finally got to hold Nash 5 days after he was born. 

 Meeting Noah and Ryder for the first time....

 We got to stay at the Ronald McDonald house for a weekend.  It was so nice to be together and close to Nash. Especially because I still couldn't drive to get down to San Diego...

 The week before  Christmas I had a conversation with a nurse who basically told me if I wanted my baby to come home by New Years I needed to be down at the hospital as much as possible.  Nurses are great but they take care of 3 sometimes 4 high risk babies at a time. When a baby has a feeding tube like Nash did they tend to just hook them up to the tube feeding because lets face it.....it is easier and less work.  So if we wanted Nash home I needed to get him to take all his feedings by bottle and gain weight. We are so blessed that we have so much family and friends who took amazing care of our kids so that I could be down at the hospital as much as possible those final days so I could get our baby home!

 Santa visited the NICU....

 Finally after three and a half weeks we got to take our sweet baby home on Christmas EVE. Talk about a miracle.  Many of the nurses still couldn't believe how quickly he came home and how quickly he turned around.  It felt like a dream walking out of that hospital with our baby it had been a long three weeks and we truly felt like we had received our little miracle.