Decking the Halls

I knew I didn't have a lot of time before I was either on bed rest or having a baby so I wanted to make sure we got the house decorated. It took a lot longer than I wanted but I was so glad that it was done. Sawyer was the only one who stuck around long enough to put the star on the top. He was thrilled to be able to help!

Thanksgiving

Thanksgiving did indeed happen before Nash was born. We stayed close to home because at the time we didn't know if I would be on bed rest. It was a nice low key week. Jeff had the week off which was really nice. We spent the week having fun and being together.

The story and update....

I realize how boring this story might be but I don't want to forget anything surrounding the birth of Nash.

The Sunday after Thanksgiving I started not feeling well. I figured it was my blood pressure and didn't worry too much. I spent the next few days not doing much because I felt lousy. Finally on Wednesday my blood pressure got really high. I called the Doctor he called in some blood pressure medicine and said he wanted me on complete bed rest and he wanted to see me first thing Thursday.  When I went in Thursday my blood pressure was very high and I had protein in my urine. I had a slight headache but nothing terrible. The doctor said to continue the blood pressure medicine and come back Friday. He said to pack a bag and plan on going to the hospital.

Thursday night my headache was a million times worse. I couldn't sleep, eat or do anything. I was pretty much huddled up in a ball in bed. I have dealt with migraines and this pain was SO much more intense with zero relief.  Friday morning FINALLY came around after a crazy LONG night.  Jeff took me to the dr Friday morning. Sure enough my blood pressure was high a little lower than Thursday but the dr said I looked awful and he didn't feel comfortable with me going home.  He sent me down to San Diego in case I had to deliver early the Temecula area hospitals aren't equipped to deal with a 31 week baby.

When Jeff and I arrived at the hospital my blood pressure was fine....so frustrating. I had the worst nurse who was basically telling me I was full of it and that I was going home.  After a few hours the dr finally saw me for an ultrasound. She took one look at me and said she was admitting me. Hoping that I could make it three days to get the steroids for his lungs.  She wasn't on call and would see me on Monday.
They started me on Magnesium and gave me the first steroid shot. My head at this point was unbearable. I started throwing up in the middle of the night and I couldn't keep any food down.  At about 2 Saturday the dr on call sat down with us and said he was worried that even though my pressure weren't super high that I had possibly developed swelling on my brain and he didn't want to risk a seizure or stroke or death. 20 minutes later I was on the operating table.  This is the part where I loose it crying throwing up and general nervousness. I hate un planned things and not being in control.

They had a great team all in place to have Nash go directly to the NICU. They explained that given how early he was I probably would get to see him for a quick second and that was it.  I couldn't believe it when they pulled him out he was blue and purple. I will NEVER forget that image I was so scared. Luckily he started crying a little so I knew he was at least breathing.

As soon as they got the baby and placenta out my headache went away.  It was the craziest thing. Even the anestesiogist commented on how my speech was no longer slurred and my coloring looked more normal.  I am lucky that as soon as they get the baby out my blood pressure goes back to normal.

The next few days are still a blur due to all the medicines I was on.  I got to see Nash and hold him for a quick second.  It was so hard to have your baby ripped out of you and then not able to care for them at all. So not the way it was supposed to be.
I thought I knew preemies.....but this little guy and our experience has been so much more difficult.

On Sunday night Nash had to be placed on a ventilator it was scary and very emotional.  He continued on lots of breathing help for the next week.

Wednesday I was discharged from the hospital.

Finally Nash was doing much better he really turned a corner at about a week of life.
Now currently at two weeks of life he is doing SO much better. He is currently gaining weight and just needs to learn to eat from a bottle for all of his feedings and he will get to come home!!

It has been a very overwhelming few weeks. We are exhausted and ready for our sweet little guy to come home. We know he is in the best place possible and we feel very good about his care. We can't believe how much our family and friends have stepped up to help us. Between Jeff going back to work the four kids and driving over an hour each way it has been a huge blessing to have such wonderful people in our lives.

Sweet baby boy

Nash Dean Trapp came into the world nine weeks early on December 1, 2012.
He weighed 4lbs 1oz and was 16 1/2 inches long. He has had a bit of a rough start but looks as though he has turned a corner and is doing SO much better. We are so blessed by all the help we have received and are so grateful to have him hear safely. Now to just get him home!!

One last hurrah

Last Friday we took the boys to Disneyland! We figured we kind of had one last trip in us before the baby comes!! It was a gorgeous day the weather was perfect and it wasn't too crowded we ha a great time together. Ended the day at cafe rio!! It has been a very long time since we did something just our family so it was a much needed break!

Halloween 2012

We had a great Halloween! We started the day going to Sawyer's Halloween program at school. It was such a cute program and Sawyer loved every second of performing.

Later that day all the cousins got together and we had a yummy feast before heading out together for trick or treating. The boys loved being with the cousins and it made me so grateful that we finally get to live close to them! I love that they have each other!!

Preschool Halloween

Ryder had his first mini program at preschool. He loves preschool and wishes he could go more than just twice a week. He loves making new friends and has had a blast with Miss Michelle.
They sang songs and paraded around in there Halloween costumes. Ryder was was more into it than I thought he would. He also took his role as Anakin very seriously even told the whole class that was his name. This boy loves his Star Wars!!

Halloween prep......

Halloween festivities are in full swing this weekend! Love this time of year. We carved pumpkins on Saturday. I do use the term WE loosely. The boys lasted all of ten minutes and really it was Jeff and I but we had fun doing it. Saturday night the ward had trunk or treat the boys had blast. Of course they wouldn't give us a decent picture. Hopefully we can get one on Halloween!

Pumpkin City

Every year since Noah was a baby we have gone to Pumpkin City in Laguna Hills. I didn't think we would make it all the way up there this year. Jeff had a furlough day and the boys had a minimum day for conferences and Jeff needed to go up to Newport to the real estate office so we made an afternoon of it. Jenn and her kids were already planning on going so we just met them there. The kids had a great time. It was a perfect afternoon not too hot or cold! Rhys was obsessed with the little quarter rides an had a blast running around everywhere.
The other boys loved going on all the rides and playing. It was a great time so glad we could keep the tradition alive!

See ya....

September sucked. That's putting it nicely. It was just a rotten month where not much was accomplished. Lots of stuff and not much to show for it. So bye bye September I am so over you and ready to move on to the fall and the holidays and more fun ahead.

Stress will kill ya! It was a crazy month with ward craft night and the primary program. Seriously I didn't realize how stressed and worried I was until it was all over and I suddenly wasn't passing out or waking up in the middle of the night having a full blown anxiety attack!! Feeling a little more normal well as normal as you can for almost 6 months pregnant.

As I mentioned this baby is ruining my teeth one by one. I have spent more time than I would like at the dentist. Can I say getting a tooth pulled is awful. Especially with out being out completely out. It was cave man barbaric. Brush your teeth kids. And floss. And then pray for good genes which I clearly didn't get. Then try not to kick your husband when he is thirty and still has NEVER had a cavity!!! You can hate him a little.

On the baby front besides the new normal of dizziness and passing out all is well. We finally got in for a for real ultrasound. And sure enough it's a boy. So looks like we will never ever get our girl. I am happy for another boy but sad mourning what I have always dreamed of since I was a little girl. I know that it will eventually be ok. Right now still a little raw. But in the grand scheme getting him here and me healthy is all that really matters. At least that is what I try to tell myself.


Noah started soccer this month. He is loving it. He is getting really into it and I like that we are moving into positions. Makes it more fun to watch.

Our poor little honey girl has been having back issues. It is the saddest thing she looks at me so helplessly and I can't do anything to help her. The dr says rest and keep her eating is really what she needs.

We did manage to get back to Disneyland finally!! Lucky us we just happened to go the day the space shuttle was flying over. And by lucky I mean shoot me. It was crazy crowded with the worst kind of tourists. The ones that just stand there staring at the sky for hours on end. We just happen to catch it as it flew over. So glad I didn't wait hours for that!!

Noah was also the husky hero at school one week he was thrilled! He is working so hard and we are so proud of him!!

So see ya September. You will not be missed bring on pumpkins fun and fall. So excited!!! Phew. Hope you made it through all that!!